I will love you at a standstill, today.

Descending to Buja with Bell to get some work done, down a 45 minute road that many are hesitant to tread due to the massive amount of car crashes and detours off the side of the mountains unto destruction. 

I call this my “healing decent” as it never fails in the times when I am alone or with the little ones, the Lord brings just what I need, at just the right time.  Honestly, this has been such an exhausting time in our lives in which I would have hoped to get a grip on things upon Isai’s return.  However, these last weeks have seemed to be never ending with the needs of our kids, staff, transitions, death, absences, new projects, what do we think, feel and want to do’s about just about everything…. Plain and simple, I just needed some encouragement.    

Interestingly enough, I needed some encouragement and the Lord brought just that through encouraging me to pour myself out all the more and He would fill me, once again.  You know, with that good peace (that peace that … yes, surpasses all understanding), the joy… sound mind and all the other amazing things He fills us with.  As I continued down my “healing decent” these are the very thoughts that flooded my mind and have restored my heart.

I don’t want to just love you driving by.

I want to love you, face to face at a standstill.

I want to care enough to know if you’re hungry and lacking,

To care enough to embrace you in comfort,

 as you mourn the loss of yet, another one of your precious children.

I want to love you at a standstill.

 

I want my love to be compelled and compassionate,

The love that does and just doesn’t observe saying “what difference would it make, anyway..”

I want to lay my comfort and my long organized to-do-list down

Moving every excuse aside that justifies and makes me feel just fine

With turning a hungry belly away, or a troubled soul to go on their way without prayer.

I want to love you at a standstill.

 

I want to look into your eyes and know your burdens are real.

I want to care enough, to try to help, in any way that I can.

I don’t want to be overwhelmed that there are thousands more hurting like you around me.

You, alone are at a standstill before me, not the other thousands hurting just like you.

I can bring change to your world, because there is only one you,

and there will be the next you and yet another you…

 

May your hope be restored, today.

I want to help you lift the world off your shoulders, today.

I do care enough to do something, today.

I won’t make any more excuses, today.

I will give you all I have to offer, today.

I will love you at a standstill, today.