It is well, with my soul...

Today, we remember our precious son Isai Lazarus who though never took a breath in our world has made a lasting impact on so many... and surly his legacy lives on. 3 years old, today. I can imagine hes sitting on the lap of Jesus, declaring truth and justice, or simply playing soccer... only the Lord knows.

Sometimes we think and imagine what life would be like with Isai Lazarus... it's a reality. However, we know that God turns all things to good for those who love Him and are called by Him, and today... today, it is well with my soul. With our souls...

The more I ponder on the word "stillborn" which is what they call a baby who is born dead (having died in the womb or in delivery during birth etc.) The amount of weeks old the baby is determines whether it's a miscarriage or a still born. I think on this word and the meaning behind it, and all I can get from it was that he was still born... meaning although he didn't take a breath on earth, he was still living, and he still died. He still had a life, a soul, a precious heart... a purpose and was a beautiful little baby at birth. I know the Lord has a great purpose for him... even now being in heaven. He was created to love and worship God. A purpose, we here on earth often find at the bottom of our priority list after our work is done and so on. But I can imagine, that Isai being just being a small child knows his purpose and is walking it out in the heavens. Today, as I think of our son I am reminded that we are but pilgrims in this world, waiting for our inheritance... waiting till the time that we join our little one. I am reminded that my sole purpose in life is to love and worship God in all things that I do. I am reminded through the remembrance our Isai Lazarus. I no longer feel a deep pain when I think our sweet boy, but rather a inner peace and joy. Longing to see him again. Longing to see Jesus.

We miss you little warrior... and will meet again some day if the Lord wills. All our love...